Today my brain is on fire, as hot and bothered as the relentless heat outside. Today I feel fragile. Today I'm thinking of two friends, one who is burying his wife after her brain tumor finally won, another who was just diagnosed with breast cancer. Today I'm thinking of Katie, whom I've never met but who must be torn to ribbons over losing her son so suddenly. Today the world is immediate and sharp.
You find someone to love in this world, you better hang on, tooth and nail. The wolf is always at the door.
Whenever I get this way, I take it out on my living space. Move the furniture around, get rid of a few crateloads of ballast, scrub the place spotless. The kids are coming over for dinner tonight, and they're going to wonder where all the shit went. And why they're getting extra ice cream for dessert.